you lose out on basic things

that you think are not much important

though they complete you from within

it’s your sheer carelessness

you lose out on making people realize

that how much you care for them

it’s how you’d decided to take things

for you’d thought of your betterment

you lose out on your last train home

and the way you criticize the world

the world’s not a scoundrel

because you have nothing to offer

Certainly you lose out on living life

you don’t know its worth

it’s your own precious life

don’t destroy it for the world

(This time I’ve tried something new. I’ve tried my hand at writing a song. It’s my first song, please comment. I' won’t be baffled if you say that it’s bad)

I don't need to close my eyes

to find you in my closets every time

I may seem lonely under the scorching sun

but you're the crowd beside me when i wanna have fun

the leaf-like smell of your hair

I sense it on my body

when you hugged me to overcome my fears

oh my dear  please come near, i won't nag you and we'll both love Sarah

hey baby please don't go

the papers say that he'll be with me but nothing can separate you and him

you'll be the father, I'll be the mother

he'll enjoy his parents deeply loving each other

just come over to see him once

I'm sure you won't go

when she wriggles her miniature fingers

it seems like your first touch of on my nakedness

don't make me sob in the washroom's corner

I see your face beaming over the top

baby please come home

I'm still alone

on this hospital's bed

when i close my eyes the flashback starts

you might have forgotten

that we were together since we were one

I'd let you kiss my Barbie doll

in return of tossing your lucky coins

the time's not change but that it's our doll like baby and more precious than those coins Sarah

come kiss her, toss her, she's missing you baby please come home

She and I are alone

please come home

Because I don’t need to close my eyes to find you in my closets every time

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They stripped each other's clothes one by one while playing scrabble. In first few games Prashant won and stripped her scarf, loosened her Louis Vinton belt and untied her Gucci shoes. In the following games, Aarakshi, still voluptuous, didn't give him a chance to touch her body till he was almost naked with just his underwear covering the main part. As soon as he was completely naked, she herself stripped her clothes, unable to control her desperation. They both were ready- for a sexual intercourse for the first time on their own bed in their newly owned house. Ever since Prashant had left for the job to the US, she waited for an eternity for this to happen. She thanked her mother-in-law for calling Prashant back to his land after an unexpected death of his father, and persuading him to join their flourishing family business. Her mother-in-law immediately joined a missionary while she and Prashant moved to a different mansion of their own. He earned quite a lot than he spent and this was the reason that he didn’t join his family business when he’d the skills to earn for himself. They both stood naked beside the bed. Her celibacy accentuated her desperation even more. Now, it was time to admire him and make him feel that she was same as before her marriage- she'd same pleasing curves which he admired in him and he'd same childlike innocence. However, this time they prepared themselves for a plan - a plan to make babies. Now, she didn’t have to tolerate that rubber in her body, no matter however soft it was. After all, it had been seven years that she waited to have kids- getting them ready for their first day to the school, teaching them how to comb hair, giving them good night kisses every night and every morning and choosing for them.

They both waited for each other to make the first move and after a few seconds of silence and deep breaths, Prashant started to admire her breasts. She curled her tongue and bit her lower lip with shyness. A scene came alive in front of her eyes when she was nineteen and they had sex for the first time. Then Prashant, just eighteen, after kissing her, moved his hands firmly over her breasts. His firm touch now seemed as if she were nineteen again. Smart, intelligent, masculine and shy Prashant was a cutie-pie during his schooling. Almost every girl in his class felt for him; however, he liked his senior Aarakshi who was the most beautiful that he’d ever seen. Being on bed with the girl he’d liked made him feel highly elated. After a long foreplay, their souls entwined to make their first baby after seven years of their marriage. Her face beamed and she saw her eyes glistering through his while laying on him, still naked and blissfully seductive, almost reaching the orgasms.

Two months later, both perplexed, with Aarakshi showing no signs of an impregnated woman, consulted a sexologist. The sexologist found Aarakshi’s body allergic to condoms and announced that she’d had too much sex years ago and now would not be able to carry a child.

PS: Use precautions with cautions. Many women are allergic to cheap rubber of condoms. Do consult your doctor first while using a precaution. AIDS IS A DEADLY DISEASE. If you think that by this way people read and learn that helps them live a healthy living then please make an effort to sharing this story and buzzing your friends.

Quite lately I’ve decided how to go about my third book. I’ve stated researching on it. My research includes reading various scriptures namely The Bhagwat Geeta, the Holy Quran, the Bible, the Guru Granth Sahib and many more alike. The book is expected to be a combination of spiritual and material world. It’ll include fiction as well as it’ll comprise teachings of great sages.

For now, I’ve the central character in my mind named Saira. A peaceful character that sees an awful death of her grandmother, indulges in reading what LIFE AFTER DEATH means. She goes through all the readings that I’m researching on it at present and finally she also dies. She sees the path through seven heavens to meet the God. Either she could take the re-birth road to the materialistic world or to a world of God.

What is God and where he resides; is all the book will be about.

You can give me suggestions for the title

Till now I’ve decided for THE AFTEREFFECTS/IN SEARCH OF GOD

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Sanjay Kataria

I met you out of curiosity
you made my life legendry
your kindness pleased me
to be the one i always wanted to be

You were my senses when i couldn't feel
you were my heart when i couldn't beat
you were almost everything that i could dream
I wish you were there with me

Your eyes were brighter than the sun
your smile was wider than the a thousand kilometre run
when you outstretched your arms the horizons merged
To make a new beginning after everything surged

I never wanted you to let go
abstaining me to cheer and to wow
i was left alone midst depression
wish i could call for a revolution

If God's great to let me find you, again
I'll request you to throw me and slain
for i could never hurt you
though you did, but I couldn't be you

They all say me that I unknowingly fear
where are you, oh my recherché dear
I'm waiting to be slain
to be "In Love" trained

“How was my valentine’s day?”- I repeatedly keep asking myself this question that keeps me away from being “normal”.

“It was great.”- My mind answers.

“Was it really a valentine’s day? Don’t cheat yourself, Sanjay!!! Why don’t you say that you’re consoling yourself? Why don’t you announce that you’re still single?”-My heart retaliates.

This mind/heart controversies are endless and I’m tired to find the correct path. Actually, I’m tired to learn that there exists no path.

The world is kind enough. It’s always the way we want the things to go around. If you think that your colleagues will dump your idea or your classmates will insult you because of your hairs drenched in oil, then, please do not ignore the fact that they will fail to do it. You are the one giving them an opportunity to do so. You must carry that positivity and courage to react towards the state of affairs so that no one gets an opportunity to be against you. Doing this will help you thrive for the best- the best you deserve.

The positive attitude engulfs positivity and that differentiates you from the lot of ‘ill-defined’ people. You start thinking broadly and define your boundaries. The boundaries are different for different people. Some may consider eating vegetarian food as their boundary. For them transcending their boundaries is an abuse to their beliefs and rituals. Some may lay their hands on a cigarette and consider not taking further drugs as their boundary. We are so similar and yet act differently. We define our different goals, eat different, love different and pray different. And this difference is responsible for the diversities on the planet. What if there were no incentives on this planet? What if every human acts alike? The misalignment of incentives creates luxuries on this planet and every human desire for it. There always exists a stretching gap between what a human wants to have and what he carves out for himself. What you are able to carve for yourself is based on your creativity and compilation of thoughts. You are always able to envisage that what is expected out of your own idea. However, what you might desire for could be just imaginations. You should not imagine, but make sincere efforts and then evaluate your efforts against your imaginations. If you are able to meet the expectations and imaginations then just imagine hard or else make harder efforts. There is always a way waiting for you. You have to decide when and how to start. Just see a spider. After ‘n’ number of failures in making a cobweb, it never fails to give a start. It will keep on trying till the time it is not able to build a web onto which it could carry itself firmly. Similarly, once you start walking on your way, just keep on walking and after that when you’ll look back, you might be perplexed to see that your web has grown to an infinite extent to hold you and your family firmly.

Each one of us is into this world with a creative mind. Just put your idea forward and follow it with your mind, body, heart and soul. After certain hick-ups, you’ll see that the run has become so simple and the track will automatically be ready for your future. Every good idea comes with a burden. People really can’t see a heavy burden (good idea) on your shoulders and forces you to unload it at every step. Your idea need not be a dam great successful idea. It just needs to be an innovative one. The more people see your idea, the more acceptances you gain. So never scare to unload the burden because the world is kind enough.

(The article is to be added to the professional edition of the book; please keep your comments flowing to make the book a success)

   Not long ago, I was listening to the song ‘Shadow of the day’ by Linkin Park squeezing my study time. I was studying less and taking long energetic breaks when the following thought cropped into my mind. Since I was listening to the song ‘Shadow of the day’, I tried to relate the shadow with our daily lives and gave the title

'Shadow of the life'

Whenever you feel the sun heating your back, it produces a mystifying long shadow of your body. Walking under the sun, neither you can avoid the shadow nor you can stay on at the same place for long. Similarly, whenever anyone does back bitching or tries to hurt you in your absence, it puts your surroundings into deep darkness and you may feel choked within your own world. The pangs of helplessness may surround you. You may find yourself suffocated in the darkness around. The shadow is such that if you try moving on, the darkness is always ahead of you. It acts as a binding constraint to your move and limits your boundaries towards light.

The only way to antagonise is to turn back and face the sun and let all the darkness (shadow) follow you. Face the sun and walk. Face the light- the light for your success.

Slowly and slowly, the sun will be at the overhead and the shadow will disappear, the darkness will disappear and you will be the gainer of the odds. Standing on the same position can also lead to the disappearance of the darkness, but it weakens your body, makes you debile and lacks the incentive to move on in life to attain heights. This means that whenever you do nothing against the state of affairs, it might solve your purpose in the short run but it will make you paralysed in the long run. You will lack the incentives to do anything in your future. It will also make you contemptuous, for you missed the opportunity in your past.

The overhead sun forces you to find a shelter in some quite, soothing, comforting place. That heating force makes you run to cover distances between the sun and the sand. You will surely feel lethargic and you might need water to stabilize but that would not deny you of your success. You’ll surely manage to find a luxurious shelter.

The moral is, don’t be disheartened at the complains that others have from you; just move on in life facing the difficulties and you’ll surely one day be the silent gainer of life.

(To be added in the pro edition of the book; do flow in the comments)

When everything seems to take a different route; when nothing seems to be in your favour; when responsibilities becomes more important in deciding whether you are happy or not; then, there exists a point which causes (dis)equilibrium between your emotions and responsibilities. Responsibilities and emotions are two diverging paths, you cannot walk on both. Everyone likes to be independent and be swift in his/her decisions, taking care of the expectations and glorifications, which others might be having from them. Often, parents have high-headed expectations from their children. This often (de)motivates the children when they compare the expectations of their parents over their capabilities. Sometimes, you might feel curbed, cramped because responsibilities overpower emotions. In the run of life, you’ll encounter many situations where it’d be nearly impossible for you to accomplish the expectations that others might be having from you or you might not be able to just express yourself due to some binding constraints that define responsibilities. But, the difference lies when you decide not to run and put a full-stop to your struggle. Struggling is what defines you and your personality. Keep struggling and that will keep you too young to counteract against your counterparts. Often I talk to people about what they want to achieve in life. In maximum number of cases, I observed that what people want is money and that too without struggling. If you say that money is the primary need of humankind, I whole-heartedly disagree with your viewpoint. In my opinion a person who is not having the urge for money making, who is not motivated to survive in the competitive monetary world then, how could he be successful in the same? You need to struggle to achieve what other reputed souls have achieved till now. The achievements by the Tatas and the Ambanies is a result of years of struggle and hard work. We just can’t dare to ignore the struggle they have faced and imagine a million fold in our arms every time we step out of the creaky door of our house. Till the time a small child is not made aware of actual worth of a chocolate, it would be busy enjoying the pleasure of it by eating dozens of them. Similarly, a person needs to be made aware about his goal. The goals should be clearly defined and every possible effort should be made to put the ball into the goal. In life, only you are the one who has to make efforts to reach your goal. There is no one who can act on your behalf to achieve your goals. You, yourself are committed for each folly.

The gratification of being in an illusion is infinitely more than the discontentment received after a failure.

I may seem like copying the story of Taare Zameen Par by producing a different perspective but when a thought is to be conveyed, it’s the thought that matters and not its origin.

(from a book titled INFINITY- A SENSUAL BEGINNING by Sanjay Kataria)

A cup of love
mixed with a pure feeling
someone has made my life
a life worth living

That bold day voice
that silent night whispering
someone has made my life
a life worth living

Lost deep into the thoughts
I am often seen grinning,
the feeling is so bewildering
someone has made my life
a life worth living

My life now
has got a meaning
someone has made my life
a life worth living.

(GARGEE KANHERE,ST. MARY'S CONVENT SR. SEC. SCHOOL , BHOPAL, M.P.,INDIA)

(This poem too is to be included in the professional edition of the book; I expect you to comment)

The heart so heavy and mind so numb

the war inside and the silence around

agony and anguish filling me up

hanging by patience and the faith inbound

over and over...again and again...

the same thought being churned but all in vain

neither to loose and neither to gain

but the battles are fought and fear sets in

the hopes I lived by seem all so false

digging out the scars, buried so deep

struggling with my feelings, my heart so sore

after all that I have stood

confessions and sorrows is what I get all the more...

(A poem by Shashank Saket, 2nd year, B.E computer science, Manipal institute of technology, Manipal)

(The poem is to be included in the professional edition of the book, do comment on it)

The world is very kind. It’s always the way we want to see the things going around. If you think that your colleagues will dump your idea or your classmates will insult you because of your hairs drenched in oil, then please do not ignore the fact that they will fail to do it. You are the one giving them an opportunity to do so. You must carry that positivity and courage to react towards the state of affairs so that no one gets an opportunity to be against you. Doing this will help you thrive for the best- the best you deserve.

The positive attitude engulfs positivity and that differentiates you from the lot of ‘ill-defined’ people. You start thinking broadly and define your boundaries. The boundaries are different for different people. Some may consider eating vegetarian food as their boundary. For them transcending the boundaries is an abuse to their beliefs and rituals. Some may lay their hands on a cigarette and consider not taking further drugs as their boundary. We are so similar and yet act differently. We define our different goals, eat different, love different and pray different. And this difference is responsible for the diversities on the planet. What if there were no incentives on this planet? What if every human starts acting alike? The misalignment of incentives creates luxuries on this planet and every human desire for it. There always exists a stretching gap between what a human wants to have and what he carves out for himself. What you are able to carve for yourself is based on your creativity and compilation of thoughts. You are always able to envisage that what is expected out of your own idea. However, what you might desire for could be just imaginations. You should not imagine, but make sincere efforts and then evaluate your efforts against your imaginations. If you are able to meet the expectations and imaginations then just imagine hard or else make harder efforts. There is always a way waiting for you. You have to decide when and how to start. Just see a spider. After ‘n’ number of failures in making a cobweb, it never fails to give a start. It will keep on trying till the time it is not able to build a web onto which it considers its weight enough to be held firmly. Similarly, once you start walking on your way, just keep on walking and after that when you’ll look back, you might be perplexed to see that your web has grown to an infinite extent to hold you and your family firmly.

Each one of us is into this world with a creative mind. Just put your idea forward and follow it with your mind, body, heart and soul. After certain hick-ups, you’ll see that the run has become so simple and the track will automatically be ready for your future. Every good idea comes with a burden. People really can’t see a heavy burden (good idea) on your shoulders and forces you to unload it at every step. Your idea need not be a dam great successful idea. It just needs to be an innovative one. The more people see your idea, the more acceptance you gain. So never scare to unload the burden because the world is kind enough.

(This article is planned to be added in the professional edition of the book; do comment on it and let me know if I'm correct writing it)

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>>>>POEMS
1)A Life worth living by GARGEE KANHERE,ST. MARY'S CONVENT SR. SEC. SCHOOL , BHOPAL, M.P.,INDIA

2)The final kiss by DEBYAN DASGUPTA, WEST BENGAL, INDIA

(MANY MORE TO COME; YOUR NAME COULD ALSO BE HERE......KEEP POSTING)

3)A poem by Shashank Saket

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5)Om Book Shop, DLF
6)Janta Book Depot, Lajpat Nagar 111
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Life, name and game- these are the three simple words which we often hear from some or the other. Actually, they are so simple to say but too difficult to live with. It’s not as simple as it sees to be. When I look at others, I feel how easy it’s to live a life. When I analyse them, I feel how easily he’s having a name and when I go in depth about it, I feel how easy it is for him to play the game. It’s just like frost on the mirror during winter season. As we clean the glass we see our actual image and all the illusions getting wiped away. We ourselves are the illusion makers and with the passage of time, we realize that in what erroneous world we were living in. It hurts when we see the actual image coming in front of our eyes. On one hand, I feel that it’s better to be in an illusion rather than inviting depression in our lives but on the other I regret for not facing the truth.

-AN EXTRACT FROM INFINITY-A SENSUAL BEGINNING BY SANJAY KATARIA